Hi...This journal is not important at all.

I only want to write something out from my head/ my mind.


And I'll delete it someday...

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I feel disappoint and unhappy so much.

I try many way to make me feel better....I go out to somewhere,listen the music ,watch my favorite cartoon ,reading and etc. It can help me only a short time....

Hell......


It's not only me who disappoint in me. I'm really sorry that I can't be as everyone want me to be.
I want to feel better.
I want to be a cheerfully guy like in the very long time ago too.
I want to forgive everything what my friend make me angry and lost something important to me.
I want to forget what my old friend lied.
I want to smile and say with my friend "It's okay,I forgive you"


But.....I can't...

I'm sorry. It's all my fault.



I hate to feel like now...I can't refuse that I still angry and unforgivable to that guy.
Once....she make my dear friend aways from me...
Once....she make my dear friend cry...
Once....she make a big lie to me...

Manytime....she make me feel bad
Manytime....she make me tears flow
Manytime....she end everything by apology but I didn't feel better when she apologize.


I don't like someone,who act like know everything about me...




Once she ask me to forgive her.....I was soundless......I can't say that "I forgive you"



I know I am an emotional person.

That's why I want to sorry you..

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